Ok. so basacly im probably eather ganna use this page mainly to complain about all the crap in my pathetic excuse for a life and no one will care, or im ganna make a couple of entries to this site and then forget about it and never come back so itll be intresting to see what happens.
the story is im a 15 year old guy who has no idea wether iv got a bunch of friends that im cool with, or if im a compleat looser. i go to santa fe high and am currently failing most of my classes but dont realy care. im told that im smart but personally doubt it because if i was, why would i be failing? anyway, im currently on medication for ADD and anti- depressants but the anti-depressants dont realy seem to be working.
one of my goals for having this site is to reveal the real me- beneath the medication. the meds im on make me feel almost outside of my body, like im in the backround and im just watching my life. i dont feel like im myself. since iv started them iv started getting more friends which would seem like a good thing, but sometimes i hate myself because of it. because i relise that iv only gained thies friends because of the meds and without them, id just be like i was before, the annoying white kid who nobody likes. i still often become deppressed and when i do, this is where i will come. to show people who i am when im not at school, who i am behind the seens. so people can see that im not the wierd happy kid that they know me to be.
that gets the main stuff out thier so that you can know what the crap in this stupid journal is about.
